Non-weight loss goals and motivations!

Motivation!!  Looking at things like this always keeps me on track!



I'm going to try to think back to today any time I'm ready to put something shitty in my mouth!


One of my non-weight loss goals is to be able to workout/run in these spandex shorts. Mine will probably be a little longer than hers though...



I HATE it when people say..."You didn't gain it overnight, so don't expect to lose it overnight."  I know that jerk!  But some people are naturally skinny and some people are not.  I am not making excuses for my weight at all, but when a naturally skinny person says this I want to bop them on the head.  I digress...it is the truth.  You can only lose one pound at a time.  When I get on the scale after a week of being diligent and it tells me I lost .5 I want to throw it against the wall and eat some damn ice cream.


No I'm not pregnant, but another non-weight loss goal of mine is to looke like this when I am.


I'm going say it...hoping that no one actually reads my blog and holds me accountable for this.  I want to run another half-marathon.  UGH.  I hated it.  I hated it sooo much.  But the knowledge that I did not train for it and that my time could have been oodles better haunts my ass. 


Ohhh so that's what it means?!  Let's do this!



I know it may sounds overly ambitious, but I would love to start getting a workout in before work.  I don't just want to lose weight and be healthy.  I want to be a freakin beast.  Also, who wears this to workout?  Maybe me after the next few months?!

Another small thought.  I've never shared this with anyone, but one of the things I would love to do is to work in the fitness industry.  I don't feel like I'm fit enough yet, but one day when I am I would love to do something.  Even if it's just volunteering.  I think that teaching children about health and fitness at a young age is important.  I think it could save a lot of people from struggling later in life with weight problems.  Since I know that mantaining my weight is much easier than losing it, my guess is that prevention would probably be even easier!

Life Changing

I want to be a little serious today about what's been going on.  I feel like it's been such a cycle, but from talking to other people with the same struggles I don't think I am the only one.  I want so badly to finish what I started and lose the rest of the weight I need to.  When I watch things like extreme makeover weight loss edition (yes, there is no bachelorette or big brother on Tuesdays...what else are we going to watch?) it motivates me so much to get started.  Then by the weekend I'm all like "Oreo's??!  Where?!!?"  Seems like lately there is a celebration every weekend.  Weddings...Birthdays...Baby showers!  And holy crap all these things have CAKE!  I LOVE CAKE! 

What tends to happen to me is I start doing good.  I'm motivated and ready to go.  I do great Monday through Saturday and then Sunday I have a little cheat.  This is fine.  But then the next week I do good Monday through Friday and have a little cheat on Saturday AND Sunday.  I mean come on guys, it's the weekend.  Everyone else is doing it!  It turns into doing well Monday through Friday until dinner.  This happens for weeks until I am eventually at doing good Wednesday and Thursday.  Ridiculous.

So today is the day people.  Have you ever just thought, "ok eventually it will click.  One day it's just going to start working.  The motivation will last.  When I tell people how much weight I have lost I can tell them I started my journey on this day"??  Well today is the day.  When I tell people I have lost 76 pounds in 5 years, I can say I lost the last 30lbs starting on July 31st, 2013!  I can take a before picture with confidence today knowing I won't have to take another one.  It's going to be tough, but when I go to the Dominican Rebulic in March I want to wear my bikini 24/7 and feel sexy and beautiful.  I can't wait to have the new found confidence that comes with this!



You may think I'm crazy for going hardcore on a Wednesday, but this is the way it has to be :)

 

Goal Setting

I'm thinking it's time to set some hardcore goals.  At first, I was reluctant to do this.  I hate to put a time limit on things because I don't want to get discouraged with what I am doing.  However, I think setting some hardcore short term and long term goals could make me more successful with losing these last lbs!  I feel like without having set goals I am yo-yoing.  What happens is I take my Advocare products Monday through Friday afternoon and eat healthy.  The products REALLY do curb my appetite and give me energy.  Come the weekend I just blow it ridiculously.  I am hoping some set goals will help me stay on point.  So here is the deal....

Jon's 10 year reunion is August 10.  I would like to lose 6lbs by then.  That is a totally obtainable goal. Sara's wedding is October 26.  I would like to lose 12 more lbs by that time which would officially put me at the lowest weight I can remember being.  I would like to lose another 10-15lbs after that to hit my goal weight.  If I could be at my goal weight by 2014 I would be happy!  That gives me 5 whole months to lose 30 or so lbs.  I am hoping to lose more than that or lose the 30 more quickly, but I want to make sure I am on track and don't get discouraged.  I've decided to set a schedule in order to help me stay on track and accountable.  I will be keeping everyone up with my progress!  I was weighing once a month, but I think Im going to back to once a week to stay on top of it.  Hopefully my gym dedication will help to obtain this goal!


August 8                          -6lbs                      Total
September 5                    -6lbs                       -12
October 24                     -6lbs                        -18
November 7                    -6lbs                       -24
December 5                    -6lbs                       -30

As you can see these are not very crazy goals.  It's a good bit less than 2lbs a week, but to be honest I always feel SOO good about myself when I can exceed my goals and I want to set myself up to feel good and not to fail.  They have all gone on my google calendar.  I'm excited about my goals and excited about going to bootcamp this afternoon.  I am also excited that Jon said we could fix up our bikes.  Night time bike rides with him will provide me with some extra calorie burn, but won't feel like working out at all.  I can't wait to finally complete a journey that I have been taking for 4 years now!!!  It's going to feel good to finally reach that goal after standing still for so long!

I would also like to extend the offer to anyone trying to lose weight...If you would like to send me your goals I can set up a calendar for everyone.  We can start a facebook group or just keep it between the two of us.  We can have weekly weigh ins (kind of like WW, but at your own house) and you can report back lbs lost.  This means you can have a buddy while trying to keep up your goals, but you never even have to disclose your weight!

One more thing!  Shout out to Kristyn, Amy, and Elise for joining me Saturday morning at bootcamp!!!

Energy Energy Energy

Someone recently asked me how I have the energy to do all the things that I do.  I am a pretty active person and when you add that to an OVER active husband you can definitely end up with exhaustion.  It used to be that people would ask me to do things after work or on the weekends and all I could think was, "I just want to relax.  I'm worn out from working all week and I just don't want to do anything that requires me to actually move my butt off the couch."  Things are different now.  Advocare really has helped me.  The MNS-3 vitamins give me energy.  They make me feel good.  Spark also give me energy.  It helps me focus on what I'm doing and not get distracted.  These are only two of the products that I am taking, but honestly I don't really think too much about going to the gym after work (except as you saw yesterday, when I have other plans and activities tempting me).  I just go.  It's not even a question.  I never sit at work as I used to and think, "I really don't feel like going to the gym.  I'm just so tired."  I would do that, make an excuse as to why it was ok to skip it.  I want to spend time with Jon.  I have a softball game tomorrow so that's a workout.  Maybe we can just play tennis or something.  Laundry needs to be done.  I want to cook somethnig nice for dinner.  I can just eat less for dinner so it's ok to skip the gym.  Sound like any of you?  After making the excuses I would start to feel guilty and decide to go to the gym.  An hour later I would go through the same cycle.  This would go on ALL day long.  Sometimes I would hope I forgot my tennis shoes or something just so I would have a valid excuse to go home instead.  Things aren't like that now.  I WANT to go.  Let's face it...when I go to the gym I can eat a little bit more and not feel guilty.  And this girl right here LOVES to eat! 

If this sounds like you at all PLEASE PLEASE contact me.  I can tell you about someof the things I'm using.  I really feel like they help sooo much.  And if you don't want to talk about that I am always up to listen to you vent about your frustrations, because that is what I am doing half of the time on here and you guys listen to me!

Without spark



With Spark

The Struggle

I'm going to talk about a struggle I have in hopes that other people have the same one and it's not just me.  The struggle of what I want to do vs. what I need to do and trying to fit both in to a hectic schedule. 

The bootcamp that I am currently doing has classes at 5, 6, and 7pm.  I get off work at 5, so my options are 6 or 7.  I don't want to go to the 7 class because I like to eat after while I relax and hang out with Jon, so I go to the 6.  It only takes me 15 minutes to get there.  Do you know how frustrating it is to have too much time in between work and class to go straight to class, but not enough time to go home or do anything else?  I feel like I have a 30 minute period each day where I am wasting time.  I didn't get groceries Sunday like I normally do because of vacation.  That meant yesterday I needed to go to work from 8-5, go to the gym from 6-7, and then get groceries thus putting me home at 8pm.  That SUCKS.  I go to sleep at like 10.  This allows me hardly no time to cook or hang out with Jon or relax.  And then all I can think is holy hell I don't even have children yet!!!  How do you parents do it?!?!  On top of that the laundry has not even started to get done.  Lucky for me, the hubs is great and after work he cooked dinner.  I skipped out on the grocery shopping and figured we would work things out haha.  I did some laundry this morning when I woke up. 

The plan this week (after my two crap weekends of over eating) was to eat right and go to bootcamp mon-thurs and saturday morning.  I was/am ready to get back on track.  Yesterday Jon said a friend of ours had called and wanted to know if we could fill in for a softball game last night at 6:30.  I said no, I have bootcamp, but you can if you want (1 point for me).  He decided to go home and cook dinner instead which was great.  We got invited to go play again Thursday at 6:30.  I decided we could since I knew he really wanted to and at least it was something active if I wasn't going to go to bootcamp.  So, now I'm down to three bootcamps this week.  (Do you see where this is going?). It's restaurant week in Baton Rouge.  Google it, it's pretty cool.  You get some good deals on some three course meals at local restaurants.  It's Mon-Saturday.  We had planned to go one night this weekend (trying to only have ONE cheat meal).  So, Jon says, "I want to take you on a date one night this week.  We can go to a restaurant from restaurant week and then a movie.  It won't be as busy as the weekend."  He wants to take me on a date...on a week night.  How do you say no to that?!  It's awesome.  But...that means eating like crap one night and missing bootcamp two out of four nights.  I don't know if this happens to anyone else.  This all came about and I'm in a semi panic because I want to play softball and I want to go on a date and I want to go to bootcamp four night this week and I NEED to get groceries!  WTF?!  Oh yea and did I mention I don't even have kids yet?!  He told me I could go to bootcamp and then we could go to a restaurant and skip the movie.  It seems like a good compromise, but I don't really want to NOT shower before I go.  In the end I told him to go ahead and see if one of his buddies wanted to go eat somewhere and we could still go on Friday night and then we could do softball.  That insures that I eat healthy foods this week and have only ONE cheat meal and make it to bootcamp three night, but still play softball with Jon on Thursday.  I feel like it's a decent compromise, but I do feel a little sad that we miss our weeknight date.  I feel like it's unfair to him sometimes.  Like I am holding him back from doing some things he enjoys.  If it was up to him we would probably do restaurant week 3 or 4 times this week.  If I was smaller and had a quicker metabolism I could do this with him. 

How does everyone else handle these things?  Most of the time I feel like most people would just say screw it, Im gonna go on the date and play softball and live life.  I want to do that, but I have this irrational fear that in a two week period I am going to gain 100 pounds and become discusting and no one will be my friend and I will be shunned by society.  A little dramatic?  Anyone else have this problem?

Sorry for Partying :(

So it's been awhile...

Long weekends KILL me.  They really do.  I can't be the only person right?!  Two weeks ago was 4th of July week.  I worked Mon-Wed, but my boss called on Wednesday and told me I could leave around 1:30.  This past week was family vacation week so I worked Mon-Wed again.  We left Thursday morning for vacaton with my parents, sister, brother-in-law, and their three kids.  So, not only did I have two three day weeks in a row, I went on vacation from Thursday-Sunday which = eat fest 2013.  Let's face it,  I may have lost forty something pounds, but when it comes to vacay I eat like a fat kid.  Seriously, like I am never going to eat again. 

So here I am...Monday morning...facing a 5 day week...and refusing to face the scale.  And I am ok with that.  Now, let me tell you what I plan on doing starting today to right my fat kid wrongs.  I'm back on my Advocare products after a 2 week bout with bronchitis that included 10 days of Amoxicillin.  This is my routine in case you are curious.  30 minutes before breakfast I drink my spark and take my first MNS-3 packet.  30 minutes before lunch I take my second packet.  At lunch I take the third and fourth along with a Thermoplus.  10-15 minutes before the gym I take 3 Catalyst.  It's nice to have a regimen like this and it also helps to keep me in line food wise.  I make sure I eat breakfast, a snack, lunch, a snack, and dinner.  It really does help to keep your metabolism up eating in intervals like that.  I'm back to eating clean.  By last night my body was so mad at me I could barely sleep.  I felt bloated and overly full.  I had a headache from not drinking enough water.  I get confused as to why I would do this to myself in the first place, but that is with the knowledge that come next year for vacation I will do the EXACT same thing.  The worst part is that I didn't eat anything on vacation that was overly delicious.  We all know that the restaurants at the beach are just full of frozen fried foods and french fries fried in old oil.  I definitely took a few steps back on my weight loss journey these past two weeks. It happens to everyone.  But it's time to forget about it and move forward.  Back on my advocare, making sure I drink an obscene amount of water, eating clean, and getting my butt to bootcamp today!  I'm not even sad to be at work on a Monday morning because I am so happy to be back in a routine and ready to feel physically like myself again.  Cheers to Monday morning! :) Let's do this shit.